Often I Feel Like I am Drowning in Life

I am writing this for those who will find solace in that someone else struggles with life each day, as well as you. Spoiler alert I don’t have a solution, but just to let you know, we are on this journey, not alone.

If you are breathing, you most likely have choices to make in dealing with life.

One of the most important things I have learned through the years is that we are not entirely in control of our lives.

In my life, there have been challenges related to health, cars, houses, and jobs, to name a few areas of conflict I have experienced. The one thing that my brain has done in analyzing these conflicts has been to know if I caused them in any way. Sometimes, if I had made another choice, it would have been a different outcome.

I have been in a few car wrecks where I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. In addition, I have had medical issues like getting the flu that was not preventable.  

Maybe you can relate to having life happens, and sometimes you feel overwhelmed.

I lost two staff jobs in my life. As a freelancer, you are only sometimes sure you lost a job to another person, or they just decided not to do a project. Either way, you still lost a job that someone asked you to bid on for them.

Each of us has taken control of some of our life decisions. Most of us chose to work on our school work to move on to the next grade. However, many of us decided to go to college to learn more so that we could work in a career of our choosing.

Each day I must work at not trying to live so much in the future that I create anxiety. Unfortunately, this is such a real struggle that I find more times than I care to admit; I succumb to the pressure and find myself in depression.

When unexpected bills and broken relationships happen, I often feel like I have no control over anything in my life.

Most of the time, prayer helps me lift my head and take a step forward. But God isn’t fixing all my problems.

The more that is on my mind, the more difficult it is to focus. I am reminding myself to look at each crisis and try to understand the things over which I have no control and the things I have overpowered.

The most challenging crisis that I constantly deal with in life is that of relationships. So many other problems in my life take just enough time from my relationships, damaging those relationships.

I believe that this is why there is so much depression and suicide in our culture today. Each of us is trying to deal with each crisis alone. I believe that even prayer time alone isn’t enough.

Prayer always helps me clear up some of the mess in my mind to remind me of my compass better and make plans to move forward each day.

Dorie showed Bill Bangham and me here oasis sport at the Beach and Kona Brewery on The Big Island of Hawaii. [NIKON Z 6, VR Zoom 24-105mm f/4G IF-ED, Mode = Aperture Priority, ISO 320, 1/500, ƒ/8, (35mm = 48)]

“I have so much to do that I shall spend the first three hours in prayer.”

― Martin Luther